Sort of like Tupac, but under different circumstances in a different era.

I’m working a job right now as a Lifestyle/Operations Manager at a great company. My job consists of coordinating the lives of corporate executives and athletes, not just on Wall Street, but around the country.

If that means ‘on the pitch’ tickets to see Ronaldo and Messi, I’m your man. If it means coordinating a trip to Fiji, that’s me. Luckily, I haven’t been asked to do something off kilter like land a man a dominatrix or anything. Luckily I repeat; and I get compensated decently for a kid who just graduated a year ago into an economy not in my favor.

But way before I started this job in late April, I worked as a Public Relations Director at the successful sports-startup, yoonew.

I was there from June 2008 to December 2008. After six months on the job, I was laid off (amongst others) due to the economy’s conditions and how they affected our company. Today, yoonew continues to run strong, but without the folks who helped contribute to its growth unfortunately.

While I was there, I took cross-country road trips, met athletes, and had the most fun I ever had at any job. It was totally different from what I do right now. Low stress and creativity were key fixtures of that job.

But, I can’t lie, I miss it a lot. What I miss most is a job I really enjoy. You know, one where I even come home and feel like doing some job related stuff for the next day.

Don’t get me wrong, getting calls from athletes and executives on a daily basis saying: ‘Claudio, I loved this, that or the other – you’re the best’ is somewhat fulfilling. It tells me I’m doing a good job. But its just not me in the end.

So as you have read, what I do right now isn’t necessarily a career nor something I expect to do for much longer. My own employers even know that when they look at my resume.

My problem is this though; I kind of feel like I have no passion. As funny as it sounds, playing basketball was my passion. But a few ACL injuries messed all that up. Now, I ‘feel’ like maybe working with a sports league is the closest I can be to something I really love. But how do I justify leaving a job that’s so secure for a job I “may” love? Also, a job where I can easily be laid off a week after I start because of these leagues’ bad financial times? And do I really want to end up sitting at home receiving unemployment checks?

So I’m kind of a kid who’s scared to take the leap to something I will most likely love; but also doesn’t want to end up without a steady income because its not an experience I want to go through again.

I know, I know, these are the types of decisions that make people who they are in the end. Taking risks can turn into enormous success. But, I’ve taken a few risks in life when it comes to jobs and have gotten burned.

In final, if something comes along with a league that I know I’d absolutely love, like a writing position or PR position, I’ll take it. But I’m not going to just take a job with a league because I feel working for it will make me happy. Because, in the end, I could not only end up un-happy, but un-employed at the same time.

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